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  1. Kyle Hill

    Kyle Hill

    27 kun oldin

    *Thank you for all the messages, comments, and stories you’re sharing with me today. But my story isn’t really for me - I only hope that my experience can illuminate and educate.*

    • Eugen Zimmer

      Eugen Zimmer

      2 kun oldin

      I feel with you! And I think that is my super power, too. I love to thear that yomeone else see it that way! :)

    • Discordant Harmony

      Discordant Harmony

      2 kun oldin

      I too have Asperger's and it really is both a blessing and a curse, similar you I didn't know I was an autist until about 2 years ago it made sense to a lot of actions and reactions to situations and also made sense of the very palpable knowing that I wasn't like everyone but not in the "normal" way, I struggle greatly with making friends, I have a great difficulty expressing my feelings in appropriate ways, I'm painful socially awkward at times, and sometimes I feel strong emotions without a known reason. However I've always excelled in school without ever needing to put in much effort I think about things in often a very abstract way which allows me to problem solve in ways most people don't ever think about, I have a deep appreciation for nature and animals (most animals seem to like me too I often joke that they dig my vibes but I honestly think their is some kind of truth to that because on multiple occasions I've pet and held animals that the owners say hate strangers but here they are purring/panting wagging their tail meeting me the first time)... oh I also get easily sidetracked, but yeah overall I think it is a very beneficial aspect of myself I just wish social interactions came easier to me, I've gotten better at it but it's still difficult

    • Ігор Нагнибіда

      Ігор Нагнибіда

      3 kun oldin

      the fact that you got diagnosed, is noting bad, it's actually the point in time when things should be better, as from that point things are more black and white for you. love your choice of words. keep it up my man!

    • Unknown Texan

      Unknown Texan

      4 kun oldin

      I sent this to my son who is 27 who has isolated too. I hope you help him. (His HF autistic).

    • the emperor

      the emperor

      5 kun oldin

      Hey, I was diagnosed very early on in life with the same thing. If anything it's surprisingly comforting.

  2. deadblindeyes


    4 daqiqa oldin


  3. fotnite


    13 daqiqa oldin

    I'm working on getting diagnosed, and have been doing a lot of introspection over the last year. It's pretty convenient that many of the people I watch seem to be doing this introspection around the same time I am. It started when a creator I watch was diagnosed with depression, and said that meds helped him and that the apathy they gave him really helped. I commented about how my experience with apathy was very different, how everything almost seems "neutral" because I have such a hard time knowing what I'm feeling, which got responses from people that sounded very confused. I did some digging and found that this wasn't apathy, this was a condition called "alexithymia". More digging revealed that information on alexithymia was very incomplete because up until recently, psychologists had a very hard time separating the symptoms of alexithymia and the symptoms of autism, and that an estimated range of about 45%-65% (if I remember correctly) of autists also have co-occurring alexithymia. I thought it was unfortunate that there wasn't much info, and moved on. Then, in my AP Psychology class, we were studying mental disorders, and had a day for autism. We watched a speech from an autistic girl talking about her communication issues, where she explained that she feels like she always has to "translate" her thoughts into human language, because she always thinks in terms of pictures. I thought this was interesting, because I think primarily in abstract concepts and sounds, and so I have the same issue, which is part of what causes me to stutter so often. While I was aware of my stutter at the time, I didn't realize it was as bad or as common as it is until I asked my girlfriend about it recently. So, this hint went over my head too. In the same psychology class, a classmate was asking about how I am able to remember so many of the lectures we had, or made many of the links between the class and others that I mentioned to him sometimes. I talked about my memorization strategy, which I referred to at the time is to have a "line of thought", where I start at the concept that is talked about during class, and that concept reminds me of something else from a different class, which reminds me of another concept and so on, until I reach something we studied much earlier in the year and make the connection, kind of like a wikirace in my head. This makes complete sense to me, it's basically how I've always thought of the world (though it does contribute to some problems with focusing), but this seemed to only confuse him even more. Next, I was sitting in a major class at university earlier this year, where I had been assigned to work with a partner who I actually knew from highschool during my freshman year. He remarked on how I didn’t “act like a little kid” anymore (he was a junior when I knew him), and mentioned he almost didn’t recognize me because of how different I act now. During the class, though, I found that I couldn’t stop fidgeting in my chair. While I’ve always had this issue (I often bob back and forth in chairs, pace, and do other repetitive actions), this moment was probably when I was the most conscious of it. Perhaps this was because I wanted to seem “cool” for him? I don’t know. But I found it very annoying that every time I stopped fidgeting, I’d go back to focus on the class, and then find that I was doing it again a couple minutes later. It was at this point that it occurred to me that something wasn’t right. Finally, I got a lead on this, though, when the next week, a coworker of mine who was diagnosed with aspergers as a child asked me if I was autistic. I wasn’t offended by this, mind you, but I was confused. I asked him why he would think that, and he told me that he noticed I was often silent around coworkers, had issues articulating, and that when I talked with him he could tell I had “special interests” (a term within the autistic community I wasn’t familiar with at the time). I was about to respond with a “so what” argument, thinking that he would need much more than that to know for sure, since autism was a complicated disorder. I knew a lot of the specifics on it, since I studied it in highschool (I even made a poster on it for my psychology class). But then, I realized that he might be onto something, and told him I’m not diagnosed, but I don’t actually know. When I got home, I found an online test called the Autism Quotient test, and an associated plot of test results for diagnosed autists and control subjects that the researchers designing the test had found. I found that the test gave me a very, very high score, one that was not only on the tail end of the curve for control subjects, but was decently higher than average for even autistic subjects. I searched up a youtube video by an autistic youtube channel talking about the test, and the results that the youtuber got, as well as some of her autistic viewers, still tended to be lower than mine. Since then, I’ve done a lot of research on the disorder, and have found that nearly all of the abnormal occurrences that I could identify in my childhood (though these were sparse, my memory is pretty selective so I don’t remember much past 2 or 3 years ago) could be explained by the major symptoms of the disorder. Everything from my eating habits from childhood to today, to my specific issues with socializing, to my struggling in some highschool classes while breezing through much more difficult ones, my constant fidgeting, even down to my periodic headaches and migraines, could all be explained by this. It even serves as the source of trauma for my alexithymia (as alexithymia seems to be primarily caused by childhood emotional trauma). While I’m still in the diagnosis process, the preemptive evaluation that I got seems to indicate a high likelihood of autism. When I told my dad about all this, he shrugged off the statistics, studies, personal accounts of autists I related with, etc. and told me I “didn’t have autism” and that “it’s a spectrum, basically everyone’s on it” (not true, by the way). I can post-hoc argue against him, but my articulation issues makes that very difficult in the moment, because I can’t debate as fast as others can. Despite that, though, he seems to have recently come to accept my condition, and recently alluded to him believing I have autism as well. I had issues in telling my girlfriend to, as it seems she had some bad experiences with autists in the past, notably when her friend was emotionally abused by an autistic boyfriend, so she had some ableist preconceptions and feelings about autists. She seems to have mostly come to accept my condition too, though. I still struggle with knowing whether to tell employers, coworkers, acquaintances, etc. once I get my diagnosis. I know I can get university accommodations, especially for the standard testing environments that I have issues with, but even with the people very close to me I’ve told they have a hard time getting over their preconceptions, and in the meanwhile treat me almost like a pet, almost like I’m not exactly human. Even though the accommodations would really help, both from employers and my university, I’m scared that people will never treat me the same if they know the truth. It’s much easier to change the mind of someone close to you, but what about those where all they know about you is that you’re good at statistical analysis and have autism? I was recently talking with one of my supervisors at work, and she told me and everyone else about how I “acted like a child” for the first 3-4 weeks at the place. Looking back on how my coworkers talked to me then, I can see that they viewed me that way for a good while, not just her. It was with this that I realized that I have always been treated differently by society, that I’ve always been discriminated against in such a manner. But I still worry if that discrimination will be worse if I tell people the truth, or if I don’t repress the autistic parts of my personality as much as I do. I worry that people at work will treat me the same way society at large treats autist, like some kind of token to be passed around, like autism is the only part of them that matters. This treatment makes me both very angry and makes me want to cry when I see it, because I know that I would have been treated the same way, because I see myself on my screen being treated that way. I don’t know if I’ll be tokenized or face other social repercussions if I tell people, but I also know that I won’t get the help that I honestly need if I don’t tell people. This is the kind of thing that keeps me awake at night, because I know I’ll have to make that decision eventually, and that it could be the life or death of me either way. This is why it’s so comforting to see others come out with their own stories like you have, Kyle. It gives me hope that one day, I can come out with my own story without having to hide behind a username. Thank you for giving me hope.

  4. r d a

    r d a

    Soat oldin

    You are too awesome !

  5. bastian rhone

    bastian rhone

    3 soat oldin

    Ya know I'm kinda at a similar point in my life where I think I was never diagnosed when I was younger either

  6. Frosty_23


    6 soat oldin

    I always notice these random things in these kind of videos, but your eyes are beautiful.

  7. Beth B

    Beth B

    6 soat oldin

    It is such a wild experience to find out that your internal experience of the world is not like everyone else's. It's not the same diagnosis, but I remember when I was 17, it was so strange to find out that not everyone on earth dealt with intense, mindbending, horrifying anxiety every second of every day... I thought I just wasn't pretending well enough.

    • Beth B

      Beth B

      6 soat oldin

      The "representation" in Big Bang Theory is so shitty because the show writer did not intend to write an autistic/ASD character, they just wrote someone they thought was "weird" and made him the obnoxious butt of every joke, and had accidentally written someone who fit into that diagnosis. It's really painful to see that kind of prejudice projected into a popular sitcom that reaches millions of people. Just like... why does the show have to be centered around how "annoying" he is? The later seasons amended their approach to the character and had the other characters relate to him more and show more affection, but that doesn't change the fact that the show spent years with his "peculiarities" being the one of the de facto nemeses of the show (along with women who don't want to fuck you, which is entitled as hell and gross and a separate discussion).

  8. Scott Z

    Scott Z

    9 soat oldin

    This is awesome! Thank you for modeling vulnerability and living life with authenticity. I will share this with the children I work with that also are on the spectrum.

  9. Hobo Baggins

    Hobo Baggins

    10 soat oldin

    Thank you

  10. jaedaens


    11 soat oldin

    It takes a lot of courage to openly discuss this, as there's still certainly a pronounced stigma pertaining to this subject. I'm not sure if I'm a high functioning autist, but it's quite likely that I am. In my childhood, I had pronounced echolalia and palilalia. Socialization had always been difficult for me, and it never came naturally. However, when it comes to my current 'obsessions', I am quite a fount of knowledge. It's led me to a quite respected and well paying career over the years. If it's something that I don't have a passion for though, it's very difficult to motivate myself to do much of anything. Decades later, I have no problems talking to anyone; it just took way more practice than most people require. People are shocked to hear of social anxiety in my youth. I'm not sure I would have practiced as hard as I did if I self applied the 'autistic' label earlier in life though. This is not to say it doesn't help some (most?), but I am truly glad I was never officially diagnosed. Your mileage may vary. Keep practicing talking to people. It's the absolute MOST important skill to become proficient at, IMHO.

  11. Cree Moon

    Cree Moon

    11 soat oldin

    we always knew and loved you for it.

  12. Dendé Hehr

    Dendé Hehr

    11 soat oldin

    I do not like people calling autism a "disorder". It feels like people want to make us feel less than we are. Autism is more like a different version of thinking, rather than a disorder in my opinion.



    12 soat oldin

    Its insane that you can explain complex things to us in an understandable way. even if you are in the autistic spectrum.

  14. Lorentari


    12 soat oldin

    12:10 You really got me thinking "Will we actually go back to shaking hand?"

  15. Lorentari


    12 soat oldin

    I can say, I don't think any different about you... I mean... You haven't changed as far as I'm concerned. Keep up making your great and fun content!

  16. David Fields

    David Fields

    13 soat oldin

    I myself found out I have asperger's but my parents didnt know and had no idea how to handle it. And my daughter is the same way. But know what I do now I can teach her how to adjust and be herself with society. The power of experience to teach the new generation. She loves science and nature.

  17. Kasper Buyens

    Kasper Buyens

    17 soat oldin

    Yes! finally someone that realises what i have been saying for years now?

  18. Bogdan Dumitru

    Bogdan Dumitru

    20 soat oldin

    Hi Kyle, I hope you read this. For the past couple of years I believed I am autistic, still think so, never had any tests or expert advise so I am not sure of this. At early years I noticed I am different, different then normal different, at the beginning I though I was depressed, then I thought I am an introvert. And know I'm still not sure how I am different so I'm seeking out your help, could you point me in the right direction, I would love to chat more with you on this matter privately. Thank you

  19. TheSecretVault


    22 soat oldin

    Sorry I am against this concept that Autism is a super power or as some call it the next stage in evolution. LOL. It is a disability which impares abilities and judgements. It can be worked around but in having had quite a few autistic people around me and even in my private life and I must say I think these people found it harder to cope than most and judgement calls were very questionable. Its like saying I have 3 wheels on my car but its better now at 4x4. Yes some people with autism remember stuff with photographic abilities SOMETIMES but that is rare. The problem is being a photocopier and being able to remember and reproduce stuff doesnt mean you understand the stuff you are reproducing. Which is why some with autism can do well in exams but if you talk to them they dont understand why you cant swim across the pacific in a rubber ring... because you might die. Just saying.

  20. Kin


    23 soat oldin

    To bad that my story gets deleted as i wanted to tell ya about my experience of growing up with adhd/cdc, bipolar and EUPD/borderline

  21. J.S. Connolly

    J.S. Connolly

    Kun oldin

    P. S. My Oldest Grand Son and ALL of his friends are "Science" or "Math" Nerds or BOTH! And they are THE SWEETEST and NICEST kids! My Grand daughter calls her brother and his friends a "Gaggle of Geeks" when she sees them together. But BECAUSE I am Into Star Wars/Star Trek/Comic Books/Science/Pirates and that sort of stuff... they don't mind me being around them. And I don't mind when my Grand Kids want to invite their fiends along when we go do things like swimming in the summer or to the park or to the hobby/gaming shops because they AND their parents KNOW me and know they are safe with me! And I love filling up my Van with my Grand Kids and their friends and going off for a day's adventure! It's ALWAYS fun AND we always find SOMETHING New to be interested in!

  22. J.S. Connolly

    J.S. Connolly

    Kun oldin

    WOW! Kyle... THIS was SUPER POWERFUL! And for people LIKE ME I APPLAUD YOU and SALUTE YOU For doing this! I am "DIFFERENT" and I've ALWAYS known I am! I'm 56... I was LITERALLY "PETER PARKER" when I was a kid growing up! I didn't do SPORTS, I LOVED and STILL Love Science and Art and History and Music, Science Fiction, Movies, Comic Books, and Costuming! For my 7th. Birthday my parents and my oldest sister, MADE for me an AUTHENTIC "SPIDER-MAN" Costume WITH VERY Realistic workings INCLUDING the Mask's "Eyes" which was Silver "Two-Way Film" my dad got from his work. That was used for the eye parts of the mask and it worked PERFECTLY! I was SO "Accurate" to the comics... that I USED to wear it under my street cloths TO SCHOOL.. with my Boots and gloves in my book bag and my mask in my back pants pocket JUST in case I had to be "READY for ACTION"! YES i was and STILL AM THAT MUCH of a Geek! But I LOVE IT and I'm PROUD Of it! I was a STRAIGHT 'A' Science student all through school and Graduated from High School with the TOP "Science Award" in 1983. Unfortunately... Deaths in my family in the 80's cause me to NOT go to collage for science... or anything! :( But still, all my life I have been a History AND Science AND Music AND Costuming Buff for with an Very Extensive Library of books and works some dating back to the early 16th century. I am also a Musician of over 43 yrs. and I've even taught Drumming and Percussion on and off throughout my life. My oldest Grand son whom is 16 and is JUST Learning how to drive, LOVES your "Because Science" vidz and we watched EVERY EPISODE Together! All THREE of my Grand Kids LOVE YOU and what you do! So YOU ARE NOT ALONE! You ARE a REAL "HERO" to us both Young AND! LOL :D So PLEASE... I KNOW doing this video was difficult... but from ALL of the comments I've read below.... AND from ALL OF US "DIFFERENT" People...You did an AMAZING and VERY Courageous thing! And AGAIN I SALUTE YOU SIR! :D PLEASE Keep Making us LOVE SCIENCE AND Laugh while you do it! PLEASE! Oh yes and Watch out for those Light Sabers! They ARE Kind of HOT Eh? LOL :D Joe Connolly Jefferson Wisconsin

  23. Kin


    Kun oldin

    Hi guys. So im here to tell you about my daily life, upbringing, experience and struggles with living with the diagnoses/disorders I have and believe me it's never been easy, there have always been some kind of struggle. From school, daily life to relationships. I have always been very open about my diagnoses/disorders so its easy for me to talk about it and I will tell you all about it, hopefully you will take the time to read it all. If not then scroll down to the last ans and most important part of it all. First of is that I'm 33 years old and did get my first diagnos at the age of 6-7 with at that time was called DAMP( deficits in attention, motor control, and perception, DAMP is defined by the presence of five properties: Problems of attention, gross and fine motor skills, perceptual deficits, and speech-language impairments) here in Sweden, but has now been changed to ADHD/DCD. So school have always sucked for me, especially early as most of the teachers had little to no knowledge how to handle me and my problems, so there was a lot of meeting between my mother, doctors and the teachers. Where both my mom and my doctors and specialists had to explain and teach them about ADHD and DCD and what kind of help I needed, there were a few special needs classes and teachers but it was still hard to get the right help in class, from getting the right kind of material that explained it in a way that I could understand or how the teacher or assistant explained it to during classes. I would say that the DCD was worse then the ADHD during primary school, any major sound or talking messed up my focus. While high school got better, the teachers had more understanding and more education on the type of problems of more students that had similar problems I had. Well let's leave the light talk and get into the heavy stuff shall we. As I said, I'm 33 years old and have been taking medication for pretty as long as i can remember. I think I was 6-7 when I started getting medication. As a kid I couldn't differential between reality and what was in my mind, I had psychosis and was paranoid. I was very often had delusional about things, it could be anything from animals, criminals, monsters or even the end of the world. More then once my mom found me sitting on table or high places with some kind of " weapon" be it a knife, chain or anything I could get my hands on to protect myself cuz I was sure that a big snake or crocodile and similar was going to round the corner to attack me while she was out in the laundry room. Or that trolls, goblins and other monsters or even dinosaurs would come from outside charging in. All I knew was that I needed to be ready to defend myself from whatever that was coming for my life. Or that my mom and sister could have been killed the few minutes that they been gone. I could wake in the middle of the night in panic and fear and be "battle ready" needing to fight for both my and my mom and sister's life, and my mom would need to wake up and calm me down. When my sister moved out and I got my own room I slept with more or less a bludgeon beside me to feel somewhat safe just in case I would be attacked from something or anything. I had my bludgeon, I had escape plans for when I needed to fight my way out. Having a sleepover at a friend's place was fun but at the same time a living hell. I didn't have a weapon, I didn't have 2-3 escape plans. So so many time I couldn't fall asleep or get the rest I needed cuz it was a new place and I didn't have any safety plans. This was pretty much my childhood from age 4 or 5 to 14. So at around the age of 6 I started with medication to battle psychosis and for sleeping. My teenage years wasn't much better, not as many periods of psychosis but when I was 14 I hit my first major depression. I pretty much went from moment of psychosis to depression. I still had anxiety, but I also started to have more destructive thoughts. I had extreme mood swings and at that time we didn't know why. In the beginning my mom had to more or less force to start to talk with psychiatrists and getting new and stronger antidepressants after a lot of compromises and many talks. At 15 we started doing tests and investigation I was diagnosed with bipolar and a form of borderline called EUPD or emotionally unstable personality disorder. I guess EUPD could be called both my "super power" and my "weakness". EUPD is a mental illness characterized by a long-term pattern of unstable relationships, distorted sense of self, and strong emotional reactions. It has ruined a few relationships, this part will probably make you think I'm an ass but I want you to remember that this is nothing I can control over. I could go to bed one night being totally in love then wake up feeling nothing. This is gonna sound really awful and I know it is. There were one such time were I woke up one morning and feeling nothing and decided to break up with my girlfriend shortly after she told me she had a miscarriage. I neither felt or cared nothing about it. Same with the time my ex had an abortion. I cared as much at that as dropping a plate or two. EUPD have made it almost impossible for me to connect with others or care about others. I have lost girls I loved and friends that has been so important to me. That you become something close to a machine with no feelings nor a sense of what's right or wrong, losing in such a way is a bit scary, but what is worse is getting used to it. I now been single for about 13 years, and will probably be single for many more years to come. I have grown to accept that I will always need to take medication to be able to live and function as a person, and I can't sleep without taking medication for it. I still have moments of psychosis, mood swings and anxiety and I know that I always will have. I have accepted everything that comes with my diagnoses/disorders. But such is my live. You made it here. Maybe some of you can relate to what you just have read. Either that you felt it yourself or know someone like this. But What I realy want to say with all this is to tell you that you are not alone. Don't be afraid or ashamed over ir. Don't feel ashamed if you need a professional to talk to or that you need medication. Whatever it is you have always remembered to keep your head high and keep it close to your heart, wear it like a badge of honour. Take care everyone

  24. Justin Guerrero

    Justin Guerrero

    Kun oldin

    Who IS NOT on the fuckin spectrum no one's special,I've just always thought that no offense sorry 👊💔😭😩😩💀

  25. Justin Guerrero

    Justin Guerrero

    Kun oldin

    The spectrum 😛

  26. Dana Obera

    Dana Obera

    Kun oldin

    Kyle, thank you for opening up with your condition. You have NO idea how much I needed to hear this today. My 2 years old son was diagnosed with ASD two years ago. I was (and still am) depressed over his condition mainly because I don't know a lot about what's he going through right now and if he can stand on his own two feet as an adult one day. But seeing how well you're doing (you're my nerdy science guy :)) it really reassured me my son is going to be OK. Thank you.

  27. Nora Michels

    Nora Michels

    Kun oldin

    I found out I was autistic a few years ago when I was 22; it was a total surprise for me, but nobody else in my life was surprised lol.

  28. OG_Skullkid 13

    OG_Skullkid 13

    Kun oldin

    The 1.5k people who thumbs downed this are scumbags.

  29. OspreyKnight


    Kun oldin

    Good, and thank you for talking about it. Its hard to communicate and express what it is like. I'm in the military as public affairs. I've deployed, I've been around the world. After everything I've experienced the scariest thing for me after 13 years is still asking someone for an interview, looking them in the eye(or bridge of the nose), learning how to display the right social ques to make people feel comfortable. The advice I have is to be brave. You're going to screw up socially, you're going to get lumps. Learn from it and drive on. Fear and anxiety are tools, not your master. Doesn't matter if you're jumping out of a perfectly good air plane, or talking to a senator. Close your eyes, take a breath, commit to the action, and take a step forward consequences be damned.

  30. Kelly Baker

    Kelly Baker

    Kun oldin

    I just had my friend share this video,that her son shared with her to express and share with his mom his journey... thanks for being vulnerable and speaking about your experience.. It impacts individuals, and families... So great for you to share so others do not feel alone. You are a super powerful man... what a blessing

  31. nonewalker2009


    Kun oldin

    Thank you.

  32. John Perivolaris

    John Perivolaris

    Kun oldin

  33. variousgames138


    Kun oldin

    I'm glad to see someone like you who has the same thing as me you've been an inspiration to me for a long time and got me more into science and learning after giving up for a long time but knowing someone like me can be someone like you gives me hope for the future thank you for everything man have a great day

  34. M North

    M North

    Kun oldin

    Thanks for sharing!

  35. Lord Incursio

    Lord Incursio

    Kun oldin

    Hello I am 24 years old and when I was diagnosed with autism back then they told my mother and father that I wouldnt be able to do anything but my family did everything in their power to get me the help I needed so i can have my own life. When I tell people that I have autism they dont seem to believe or give me that look of really? In today of 2021 I am a musician I am working and working on getting into college for music production I wish I could go to those doctors that told my family that I wouldnt be able to do anything but look at me now or actually look at how we are now. Ik hate is a strong word but when people portray autism in social media I hate it when they only show like the extreme or an exaggeration of what it is. Never judge a book by its cover. Never let anyone tell you what you can or cant do. I am proud to be the person for who I am and we should never feel ashamed for who we are.

  36. Mena Beshai

    Mena Beshai

    Kun oldin

    I have 7 disorders. 1 of which is aspbugers. As for stigmatism that's why when I talk to someone. One of the first things i mention is i have autism. For 2 reasons. 1 to unstigmatise it and 2 when i say it later on i get blamed for making excuses when I'm giving reasons for my action and try anyways. I've learned to put my "worst foot" forwards. So that everything else seems good by contrast. My thing is tech. By age 12 i started to teach my grandma to use computers and she was a computer programer. By age 18 configured our home network via windows xp. (Technically tech, science, quantum theories) i knew about stars by age 8. Understood them 12yrs later. I see autism as a blessing cause of which i can do all this and learn without ever going to college. 😊

  37. Mikey Oshita

    Mikey Oshita

    Kun oldin

    awesome, I am on the spectrum

  38. Casey Yam

    Casey Yam

    2 kun oldin

    Thank you Kyle, I am also autistic and have found ways to channel myself but I think you explained this in a very clear and concise way that I can use to explain to my own friends and co-workers.

  39. thesteamybeanboy


    2 kun oldin

    Bro it isn’t cancer you’ll be okay lol, I know cuz I have it too :)

  40. Carlisle Carrington

    Carlisle Carrington

    2 kun oldin

    its weird how our brains work.

  41. Daniel Furtado,

    Daniel Furtado,

    2 kun oldin

    I also have autism, and one thing I always do before socializing with other peaplo is to practice and memorize what I am going to say in that conversation before it even happens, and when it drags on too long I kind of stay there and agree with everything the person says.

    • Randy Kalff

      Randy Kalff

      21 soat oldin

      Also don't be afraid of taking time to formulate what you're going to say before saying it. When you're in silent thought for a solid, say, ten seconds, people are going to view you as someone who thinks about their actions and contemplates their options. Pretty much, you can think "What's a kind way of telling him his chin looks like his balls took the elevator up a few floors?" and look like a genius. You can also ask for a question to be repeated if you know you'll need more time to think, but don't do it after a few seconds.

  42. TheDiabloGamer 37

    TheDiabloGamer 37

    2 kun oldin

    I still love Kyle all the same, keep going strong my guy 😄

  43. distantignition


    2 kun oldin

    Similarly, with the few people I've told that I have bipolar disorder, they immediately rejected it because I "seem so stable." I wasn't saying I could fly if I jumped off a roof, and they'd never known me to have emotional outbursts. Consequently, I've been told that my doctors are wrong. Or, on the flip side, someone once said, "Oh that makes a lot of sense! You did seem bipolar the other day." Sigh... that's just not how this works. A person with BD is said to experience "rapid cycling" if they have 4 periods of too high highs or too low lows in a YEAR, and the transition takes longer than a single day.

  44. CazmaRazz


    2 kun oldin

    Yo big up the Aspy crew! Glad to have you in the bunch 😎

  45. euporphium


    2 kun oldin

    Thank you for this!

  46. Violent Rainbow

    Violent Rainbow

    2 kun oldin

    Autism is not a superpower.

  47. Lucyla99


    2 kun oldin

    I was diagnosed with Autism roughly a year ago, and it's tough, I get hyperfixtated on things easily and they keep coming to mind no matter what I try to do, and I can get easily distracted. That being said I can also work better with distractions. I can also be very forgetful and I can't stick to a plan or organize myself or my items well. It's also hard for me to communicate with others because I'm scared that they will reject me for well, being me, but that's gone away as I have met people who are like me who have gone through similar things, and who like similar things, have helped me with my social problems so much, even then I do find myself being lonely when I can't go online to talk to my friends that actually get me more than my IRL friends do

  48. Suxipumpkin


    2 kun oldin

    I generally will only share that I am dyspraxic and dyslexic because I often worry about the autism/Aspergers label and how people view that - so I can relate to how difficult it can be to share this. You are definitely doing the right thing, people need to see that although Autism can make life difficult in many ways, each of us have skills and superpowers that neuro-typical people often don't have. Some of these are innate but some are skills that are hard won. One of mine is that I'm an excellent problem solver, seeing the many different barriers and solutions to a problem. This is definitely a mixture of innate and learned. There have been so many of my own problems I've had to solve. It's not been an easy journey but even if I don't share that I am autistic, there are people who value my skills (it's taken 25 years in work to realise this though - I'm clearly not good at telling what people think of me). When I do share this with people I know they are often surprised - and equally not surprised! They see the quirks (genuinely not getting jokes, not realising people are dating, all my DVDs/CDs in alphabetical order, etc...) but they don't always notice the difficulties I have, or the meltdowns, the lack of confidence, the extreme anxiety, etc... - things I've always struggled with but have hidden or masked. Neurodiverse or not, everyone struggles with something in their lives, it's nothing to be embarrassed or ashamed of. So thank you for being open about this, it really helps those of us who struggle to try to be 'normal' to accept ourselves as we are and realise we can be ourselves. Thank you. x

  49. Brandyn Knight

    Brandyn Knight

    2 kun oldin

    I was diagnosed with high functioning autism and schizophrenia at the beginning of this year and it was really hard for me, I had kind of known about my schizophrenia but autism just came up in the psych eval and it was just so evident that I had it and it was so clear that I had ASD, I am 17 and I am so very glad that you had the courage to put this video out, thank you for everything you’ve done, I deeply appreciate your work

  50. Kiel Fisher

    Kiel Fisher

    2 kun oldin

    I'm going on a personal discovery myself in recent years, and seeing messages like yours is really helping me in the process. Thank you for this. I really think discovering stories like yours is helping me understand and come to terms with my own, and I will be forever grateful to everyone that shares a similar one.

  51. John Wild

    John Wild

    2 kun oldin

    Shit sounds like me...

  52. Jevgeņijs Klimanovičs

    Jevgeņijs Klimanovičs

    2 kun oldin

    God bless You for being so honest and insightful! 🙏

  53. Francisco Rojas

    Francisco Rojas

    2 kun oldin

    Thanks a lot for this man, my little brother was diagnosed with asperger's since he was 2yo, and although I have been pretty tough on him he is one of the most amazing people for me, so seeing more people like him succeed and be independent and actually go out and help other people like him amd encourage them really makes me happy. He started college this year and I'm sure he'll do great

  54. Jason Weatherford

    Jason Weatherford

    2 kun oldin

    I have always liked your videos and your personality. My son was diagnosed with ASD/Asperger's/ADHD this year. My wife says I have some low-level spectrum tendencies too. He was a fan ever since we discovered your channel a few years ago. Thank you for your candor, authenticity, and vulnerability. Big ups/props, Kyle. You are unique....Because Science. Boom.

    • Jason Weatherford

      Jason Weatherford

      2 kun oldin

      Also, the 1.5 K down voters of this video can eat a bag.

  55. Adam Kilroe

    Adam Kilroe

    2 kun oldin

    Brilliant post, absolutely brilliant. I've shared this on Facebook because many of us either know friends on the autistic spectrum, or are on the autistic spectrum. What I appreciate most from a carer's perspective, is how practical it is in terms of coping mechanisms and reinforcing that the world will not change to fit with anyone's personal preferences, and this is very hard for those who are on the spectrum, particularly if they are more Kanner Type than Aspergic. Thank you and take care

  56. Menelaus Swiftshanks

    Menelaus Swiftshanks

    2 kun oldin

    I am trying to get myself diagnosed and in some kind of therapy. Thank you for doing this.

  57. Josh


    2 kun oldin

    Austim is my dad's claret

  58. ShatnerLover


    2 kun oldin

    It’s so interesting how diverse ASD is. Some people are more obvious than others, and it’s important for these videos to be made! Thank you for posting this so we can learn and so people with ASD can be empowered!

  59. Brendon Lee

    Brendon Lee

    2 kun oldin

    My self-discovery was when I was working in my last company too. I´m still trying to figure out how to get officially diagnosed, but the hardest part for me is telling family and friends.

  60. Noah Davidson

    Noah Davidson

    2 kun oldin

    I think just about everyone can agree. Your a normal nerdy guy. You may have Aspergers but your right, you have used that as a positive. I think that's what makes everyone watch and like your videos. So passionate and engaged with your craft. Your perfect man!

  61. Jacobruxo


    2 kun oldin

    The sad story is that, as autism is a spectrum, you have many levels or degrees. My 5y old son has a moderate autism (or level 2, don't know how you call this in english) and he's not able to talk (yet). He's very much behind compared to other children. He's doing lots of behavior and speech therapies. But again, things are even worse when you live in a shit country like brasil, where treatment is so expensive and difficult to find. Anyway, it's difficult to me to romanticize the spectrum, it's strange to call it a super power. It's sad to live with the perspective that your son may not have an independent life, and you can't even think of dying in peace because you don't know what will be, when you are not in this world anymore. Anyway, sorry for this depressing note, just wanted to share the point of view of a sad father.

  62. TheMoonsHalo


    2 kun oldin

    Thank you so much.

  63. harys_john


    2 kun oldin

    I have it too and I love messing around with numbers, like lately I've been counting things and doing times tables in different bases for fun

  64. Meat Hook

    Meat Hook

    2 kun oldin

    I was diagnosed with Aspergers, but it turned out I have OCD, and disassociative issues. Been in therapy and on medication for ten years, and I can function now. It shouldn't be so uncomfortable to discuss, but most people just don't understand and think they can give some trite advice and fix us.

  65. Glenn Coulson

    Glenn Coulson

    2 kun oldin

    Thank you for bringing your story forward. It is important for people to understand themselves and others around them and this video helps bring that truth to light. I can relate at least in part to your story. I was diagnosed as an adult at the age of 30. Life for me at least changed for the better with understanding.

  66. Greg Scott Pringle

    Greg Scott Pringle

    2 kun oldin

    I thought it was being a shill for corporate fascists and working to corrupt the minds of children.

    • Karl Wilker

      Karl Wilker

      2 kun oldin

      How so?

  67. Aaron Lesse

    Aaron Lesse

    3 kun oldin

    "It will be worth it." It is.

  68. Robert England

    Robert England

    3 kun oldin

    Kyle, I have ADHD and have passed it down to my children. My personal opinion, nothing more, autism, ADHD and ADD are not abnormal. Those of us with these "conditions" are simply then next step in human evolution. Look at your strengths not your "condition". Luck in the future. BTW love your work

  69. Tattoo RyRy

    Tattoo RyRy

    3 kun oldin

    Dude I've been watching you for like a year and had no idea, I knew you were wicked smart and great with math but I didn't have the slightest clue. But I don't think anyone really cares (like in a bad way, i.e. judging you) you're cool as hell my guy!

  70. Killa Gorrila

    Killa Gorrila

    3 kun oldin

    I'm actually very scared to go get checked for autism since I was told all I had was adhd but lots of things are pointing that might have both

  71. Grax o

    Grax o

    3 kun oldin

    Are you the weird interview guy with the youtube channel BowserVids?

  72. Grax o

    Grax o

    3 kun oldin

    Bro you are an inspiration. Deeply appreciate your willingness to let your guard down for the benefit of others.

  73. Sanderlee


    3 kun oldin

    Incredibly powerful, Kyle. I have several friends who have children on the spectrum (some high functioning, some not) who will benefit from listening to this. THANK YOU.

  74. ifer lyf

    ifer lyf

    3 kun oldin

    Me: being autistic So many youtuber I love: Make a video about them being autistic Me: "Yo that's awesome"

    • Karl Wilker

      Karl Wilker

      2 kun oldin

      Honestly same.

  75. Georgia Poet

    Georgia Poet

    3 kun oldin

    Great video. I have a grandson with AS. Great kid. Super smart. But I can see him struggling with the world around him sometimes. I am going to share this with him. I may get tested myself. I have always struggled with many of the symptoms you talked about. Only for me it is subtle and something I can control. Much respect my friend. And keep making your fascinating videos.👍

  76. matthew schoonover

    matthew schoonover

    3 kun oldin

    My good sir. to dive deep into oneself takes more courage than most people care to admit. But to come out of it and acknowledged it and seek to help others and share your own experiences. I salute you sir

  77. Jakenator187


    3 kun oldin

    I was diagnosed with Asperger's in middle school. I am still friends with my middle school friends. I've never had problems making friends but I have never had any luck with women. I've never felt like there was anything abnormal with me. Although, if I try to make a video I am pretty self conscious that I ramble too much so I need a script. Most of the videos I make don't get posted or get deleted shortly after. It's crazy how many people I'm subscribed to on UZtop make videos where they talk about their autism. I guess it makes sense why I watch who I watch. I do watch way too much UZtop though. I'm now working as a security guard and I'm learning Tae Kwon Do so I have that going for me. I've definitely opened up a lot since middle school. Thanks for all the videos, I've been subscribed for years.

  78. Kayne Erasmus

    Kayne Erasmus

    3 kun oldin

    Being an apergy myself, it is a little bit hard for me in some situations but it is great to meet another

  79. Leslie Johnson

    Leslie Johnson

    3 kun oldin

    I want to say so many things but I can't even begin to organize those thoughts, but Last year, I discovered I was neurodivergent at 24. I've also been a huge hermit, and still am. I have a hard time connecting with people, particularly while growing up. Also related so much to hyper focusing on details, scatter-brainedness, and especially anger resulting from misophonia. Thank you for having the courage to speak on this.

  80. LilithShaw


    3 kun oldin

    Dang dude bring on the tears. Glad you found your confidence.

    • LilithShaw


      3 kun oldin

      I had to stip listening cuz you started to explain me to much. A disassociate from everyone and anything

  81. Antonioborg009


    3 kun oldin

    I'm also neuroatypical, though with ADHD. I'm glad to hear from someone else who sees that there's a lot of unexplored neurology out there, and that our understanding isn't the omniscient catalogue that some might think it is. We're still amazingly ignorant, as a public, of the struggles of the people who enter it without knowing that they're facing different obstacles from the usual--and that the differences make finding help getting past them much harder. Thanks for offering a hand up by way of helping awareness and giving advice. My struggles aren't quite the same as yours, but I've taken what applies to heart.

  82. Tony B.

    Tony B.

    3 kun oldin

    Thank you for this ❤

  83. Kevin Adams

    Kevin Adams

    3 kun oldin

    I am 33, and I just found out about a year ago when my son was diagnosed that I have some degree of autism. I am so grateful for your bravery, it makes me hopeful that my son will be able to come to terms with who he is and harness his super power when he sees so many cool adults be open about who they are.

    • Randy Kalff

      Randy Kalff

      21 soat oldin

      So long as he can get himself to become social, he'll have an easy time in life. The only problem is that he won't be able to neatly fit in the mold employers tend to make, but he can definitely find a niche where he excels beyond even the most competent of his piers. Personally, I would let him focus on what he likes and guide him in the direction of the interests that can be monetized. After all, if you can make a living off of something you like, it's easy to enjoy life and the person you've become.

  84. level 010

    level 010

    3 kun oldin

    This gives me a form of happiness that there are people that also have autism/asperger

  85. C Birdman

    C Birdman

    3 kun oldin

    I have felt I’m on the spectrum as well. But why is there not a spectrum for the opposite of ASD? Why is that side all considered normal?

  86. Ryan


    3 kun oldin

    If we're being honest, the spectrum can be beneficial. Some, much like yourself, use it like you say.. a superpower. The more we think about it the more it's obvious that pretty much all of the greats minds of humanity have had some sort of this "condition" if you want to call it that.

  87. abumy4


    3 kun oldin

    Thank you for thoughtful way of presenting this topic and sharing your story. But maaan.. now I have doubts if I myself might be on spectrum. Open minded approach really helps in these cases I feel

  88. The Cheaterman

    The Cheaterman

    3 kun oldin

    3:00 You know, it's kind of funny when you put it that way ; does it mean we already kind of "knew" you, if we're not that surprised by the news? :-) EDIT: Actually maybe the ONE thing that surprises me, is how good of a communicator you've always been, despite ASD often being presented as something that will impair communication skills! :-)

  89. FREDRICK 24.7.365

    FREDRICK 24.7.365

    3 kun oldin

    Welcome to the team of power being on this planet. Peace, Health and Wealth Always 🙏😇

  90. sierraluna


    4 kun oldin

    Thank you so much for sharing!! I began to suspect I was autistic a few years ago. It explained so much about me and everything I struggled with growing up. I only recently considered seeking a formal diagnosis. One of the major factors holding me back is that I am petrified of coming out to my friends and extended family. Personally, I think autism is the reason for all the things I am good at, and also why so many things I tried came easily to me. I don't consider myself disabled in any way, but since autism is still often referred to as a disability I am worried that's what others will think. I appreciate that so many people are creating channels dedicated to talking and sharing their experiences with autism. I learn a lot from them but the very fact that they're willing to talk and share about it is why I never really felt I could relate to them. But you shared even though it made you uncomfortable, and I find that profound and comforting. I don't think I can really explain how much that means to me, so I think its best I stop trying 😆

  91. Devin Smith

    Devin Smith

    4 kun oldin

    Doesn't seem like anything to feel awkward about or embarrassed about to me. That being said I can acknowledge that it must've taken a herculean effort (or maybe it'd be more accurate to say a Thor-ian effort) to make such a public pronouncement given that he feels that way about it. Which suggests that he really has a heart that wants to help in whatever small way he can to others who may not be as fortunate as him. Basically, one of my favorite youtube nerds just got a boat load of extra cool points.

  92. Kevin Pitts II

    Kevin Pitts II

    4 kun oldin

    Ok, so since you have your superpower now, which faction are you joining up with? X-Men? Justice League? Avengers...? Lol hats off to you brother! You did good. 👍🏻

  93. Draxiss


    4 kun oldin

    I was *so* relieved you didn't say Autism Speaks. I don't know why I was worried; I appreciate what you've done.

  94. Gary Warman

    Gary Warman

    4 kun oldin

    thank you for this, Kyle. i think that it is important to state that autism is not INHERENTLY a debilitative condition; I 100% identify with the conception of autism being a superpower, in that laser focus and a mind so hyperfocused on digging out details from the hoi polloi all the way to the sui generis. it can certainly be burdensome in specific contexts, and it can bring issues about with engaging and interacting with other people on occasion as my framework for reality and my values only very rarely align with those of a typical individual. but I would sacrifice all the social interaction, all the talking, all the engagement, all the connections in the world if it meant I could really get to the root of everything, as it stands and as it is. that being said, I do think that that is a lot of just hopeful thinking, because the fact of the matter is I am horribly dependent on other people to even begin to see any value or worth in myself; I know exactly what I am capable of, and what it is that I can do, but I don't have enough faith in myself to actually do it consistently and to do the things that are necessary to support my own self in life. it is so painfully important that people learn to develop the capacity to interact and engage with things that make them uncomfortable, with thoughts and concepts that they don't agree with, with just general cognitive dissonance. reality keeps assaulting us constantly with conflicting perspectives and viewpoints, and it is important that we are able to take them all in, and consider them on their own merits, rather than forcing our own personal biases and perspectives onto them. stoicism as a philosophy has brought me a lot of security, at least in terms of my mental state and my self expression. i am so stuck in this loop, stuck in this path, and I don't know what to do. but I keep walking forward. hearing you share your thoughts has helped me a lot in my own ways. thank you again, sir, you have my utmost gratefulness, simply for the fact that you exist. どうもありがとうございます。

  95. KSenfiz


    4 kun oldin

    Hey mine too...Were alike.

  96. Patch Ouli

    Patch Ouli

    4 kun oldin

    I just found out a few months ago I’m autistic! It’s wild how you can spend so much time without a clue! But when you do it feels so damn powerful, I understand exactly what you mean when you say superpower

    • Kevin Adams

      Kevin Adams

      3 kun oldin

      Same here, it is really strange finding out later in life, but I am glad I know.

  97. Frank Johnson

    Frank Johnson

    4 kun oldin

    I don’t think anything was obvious or anything to be ashamed about really

  98. Pedro Stavrovich

    Pedro Stavrovich

    4 kun oldin

    Dizus craist, i wish i have the courage to do this, i have 26 and 1 years ago i start to realise the same signs as you. Nobody knows or discover this, not even my mother, fortunately. Inicialy i was thinking that i was a psychopath, empaty is not easy for me but then i realize the single target mindset, this helped me alot, especialy with other languages and then i finally understand why my childhood "friends" hated me so much. People always hate the thing that they don't understand, most of them. This is the best video on youtube, thank you very much for this, i highly apreciate, one day or another i'll need the same courage. Love from Brazil.

  99. Simon Gosper

    Simon Gosper

    4 kun oldin

    Hi Kyle I know you probably won’t see this but I’d just like to say this is the first time since my diagnosis that I feel inspired and excited for what the future holds for me. Thank you for being brave enough to do this for all of us. - A fan for life

  100. Zaecus Celestis

    Zaecus Celestis

    4 kun oldin

    "The world isn't going to change for you. Here's how I changed the world around me to meet my needs."